Throughout my ordeal I have find out that you can learn good things from bad situations.
I learned as a child that life was hard and unfair. As mentioned in the documentary. I had a very rough childhood. But I understand now that I it made me stronger- like life was preparing me for what I was going to face- so that I could endure what was awaiting me in the years to come.
A few months ago, when one of my readers contacted me, I learned a word that I have never heard before. It is the name of his company, and it is the word that describe me the best. I absolutely love this world.
Resilience: the capacity to recover quickly from difficulties.
I have not recovered yet. I think I never will, as long I am away from what I love the most- my family. But I am resilient.
I still cry every day and night. I still miss cooking for my family, playing with my dog Spot and sitting outside on my beautiful rocking chair while waiting for the bus to drop Pamela off from school. My oldest child now 18 years old.
She was 16 when I got deported. Healing is a process I know that. I can just hope that one day I will understand why this happened to my family. I know I probably deserved it -but they didn’t. They are just victims . I hope that one day I can go to bed and wake up without crying. I know one day I will.
In the meantime, I keep going-running each day and praying for my miracle.
By the way what have I learned? That I am stronger than I ever though!
As always thank you for reading my blog.
Finding Hope After Deportation 
I find your situation so sad- and I will bring attention to your plight on my social media. I’m a widow of an (non US country) native- he was detained and nearly deported. We had financial resources at the time for an excellent immigration lawyer – Ginger Jacobs- whom you may want to speak with. We copiously documented each and every moment in the U.S. and he was deemed “inadmissible” not deportable. Still we suffered for four years since he could not go to see his extended family in his native home. Also if he had been able to go home he might have gotten medical advice about the certain medicine he was taking in the U.S. which had some risk of the very cancer he acquired. He did in fact receive citizenship and that is likely because he knew how to charm people- which is arbitrary for families like yours. My son and I are suffering too – but please take comfort in the fact that your family can visit. I know that isn’t saying a lot but if my late husband were to walk into the front door now- with all the problems, worry, financial cost , aggravation he caused – I would only embrace him with so much love and support. I hope that helps as that is the intent. And if you write to me I’ll see to connect you with Ginger!
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Hi Emma. I am so sorry to heard that you husband passed away. I understand how you may feel. I lost my father at the age of six. And yes, I am alive and you are absolutely right. At least my daughter and husband can come and visiting me. But it’s a lost. I really miss to see them every day. Thank you for reaching out to me and for reading my blog. I hope you can find confort knowing that one day you and your husband will be together. God bless you and since I am assuming you are a US citizen. Please If you want to see me go home. Vote for a President that treats immigrants better, specially immigrants that have strong roots to the US. And yes please connect me with the lawyer you seek advice, perhaps he can find a loop on my case. Gracias!
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